Well another week come and gone! I can again say, I've never felt so pulled and pushed spiritually, emotionally, physically and all the above... it's radical in a way. Refiners fire, I like to say and my mouth tastes so much like ash. But attitude is everything. Reading the words, hearing the sermons, letters and messages these past couple weeks have prepared me in a way. These trials and challenges lately are to help me be grateful; they've definitely made my attitude turn to gratitude.
So in thinking about it, reflecting upon the mission, my life, and thinking about God, if time permitted I would express so so much more. But in this week alone there was so much light He gave. In the zone conference training they cram into our brains. The stories of individuals you learn on exchanges. Knowledge and Wisdom from my companion, oh that silly monkey. How to further prepare for chapters to come. What have we to doubt? Nothing I would hope. At the end of the day, when you've given it your all and you're spiritually exhausted, as I was this week, before slumber comes and your at the side of your bed (or the bottom of the ladder cause i'm on the top of the bunkbed) if it be a word of "thank you" I hope that would suffice.
Give thanks to God for the unknown blessings on their way. I was inspired with the idea to write a thank you card to someone and let them read it in months to come. As President Uchtdorf has shared, you're understanding of gratitude opens the catalyst for God's love. Share goodness with others, put off that natural man, that self-perception and see and write what good someone has done for you.
A letter to God:
Thank you God for the love you give me.
Thank you God for the good days and the bad days.
Thank you God for a family.
Thank you God for laughter.
Thank you God for shelter, a working car, and food.
Thank you God for members of the Church who watch out for us.
Thank you God for putting up with me and all my complaints.
Thank you God for your Son, who saves me when I feel in defeat.
Thank you God.
When feeling low, this letter lifts me up and gives me hope. Evolution makes his move. There's new magic in the air, and knowing this builds my faith in God. It cannot be unshaken. I'll touch on this, Revelation is a marvelous tool. Search, ponder and prayer when mastered is said to change the life for greatness for an individual. I have so much more to learn and see. Being and feeling happy, free, confused, and lonely at the same time again, is radical in a way.
Thank you my dear family and friends. I do miss you a lot, haha I never knew how much I had til it was gone. In finding myself, who where what I've been (gosh what a stubborn teen). I come to see I couldn't be who I am, Adam Black, without all y'all! I'm grateful for when the day comes we can hang out, explore and talk, reminisce, and chit chat at a bar (non alcoholic).
Have a Happy Thanksgiving, eat lots!
elder adam black